Of My Mother...
Mary Ann McQuillan
"When Tomorrow Starts Without Me"
When tomorrow starts without me, and I'm not here to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me.
I wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today,
while thinking of the many things we didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me, as much as I love you,
and each time you think of me, I know you'll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand,
that an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand,
And said my place was ready in heaven far above,
and that I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye;
for all my life, I'd always thought I didn't want to die;
I had so much to live for and so much yet to do,
it seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays, the good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared and all the fun we had.
if I could relive yesterday, I thought, just for a while,
I'd say goodbye and kiss you and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized that this could never be,
for emptiness and memories would take the place of me.
And when I thought of wordly things that I'd miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did, my my heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven's gates, I felt so much at home,
when God looked down and smiled at me, from His great golden throne,
He said, "This is eternity and all I've promised you".
today your life on earth is past but here it starts anew.
I promise no tomorrows, but today will always last,
and since each day's the same day, there's no longing for the past.
But you have been so faithful, so trusting and so true.
Though there were times you did some things you knew you shouldn't do.
But you have been forgiven, and now at last your free.
So won't you take my hand and share my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart,
for everytime you think of me. I'm right here in your heart.
Written by:
Barbara Ralston from Garland, TX.
For her niece Leslie who was killed in a car accident.
Click on the card to see the poem.
At the Doorway
You stood at the doorway not knowing to stay or go
We followed as far as we could
The door was half open but indecision still remained
Your eyes full of pain and blurred with tears
We cried "Do not leave us, we need and love you so"
You turned around to give us all a kiss and hug
Your slender hands held us as only a Mother can
"It won't be long" you quietly said
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The silence was deafening, no words could be said
Our crys filled the heavens and earth
The last words you said were "I love you"
This we never disbelieved
Your face would light up when you saw us
A smile would take the place of your solitude
You were never alone Mom, our love stayed with you
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We knew you were afraid Mom
We were afraid too
Our tears stain our pillows and grief marks our faces
As we think back on your last day Mom, we cry
I guess the tears are for us
As you are now in God's loving care
No more pain or distress can affect you now
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Do you hear us Mom?
Do our crys and whispers come to you?
I know you are still with me Mom
I sense you daily near me
The smell of flowers
The touch of a hand not seen
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I Want to have you hold my hand again Mom
I want you to soothe my brow
I Need to feel your kisses again
I Need to tell you my "soul"
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Never stop loving us Mom
We will never stop loving you
Keep telling us that you are near
Keep watch over us all Mom
Whisper in God's ear for each of us
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Until the day we meet again Mom
Our eyes will not be dry
We pray that you are right Mom
That the pain will be eased with time
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Written by Debi
